Totally pooped

Before I ramble on with my complaints, here is a belated happy new year wish for all in the world and universe. How are you all doing?

After working days and nights to get my promotion review file out, my body is protesting to me now. I am so very wiped out! Going through the hoops isn't so bad compared to working with the bothersome protocols. Why do people have to give each other a hard time instead of loosening up? Why do they create a system to lock us in?

I've spent more time translating my paper and thoughts to Chinese than doing anything else. I lose my patience often in doing that. It is like living in a foreign country all over again. What's even more scary to me is the feeling of "being stuck" because I am not learning anything new here. I've stopped growing professionally and that is so not me..

I can't imagine sitting in front of the computer researching till the day I die. What an awful future to have...

But of course I can look at the bright side of things..and I don't have to be in this..I can get out if I want..

So what's keeping me here?